What Are You Prepared to Give Up?

Posted October 31, 2011 By Dave Thomer

November 5 is Bank Transfer Day, an unofficial effort to collectively stick it to the large banks by closing accounts and taking business to smaller institutions that, presumably, will not precipitate major credit crises while maintaining a very high salary and bonus structure for top employees. It’s a good example of consumer activism in a capitalistic system – let your wallet do the talking and try to hit the people whose behavior you want to change in the pocket book. It’s a tactic that has a long and proud history that includes the civil rights movement of the 1950s and 1960s and the Indian independence movement.

I do have one slightly cynical question. Seeing as we’re three years from a financial meltdown that left no one happy with bankers with the possible exception of their mothers, why is anyone with the option just getting around the leaving the big banks now? What motivated people to keep doing business with people whose practices they seemed to abhor? (You can include me in this category if you want – my “bank” accounts have almost always been with credit unions, but the large banks have been making considerable profit from my credit cards and student loans for years.)

My guess is that for many people, the status quo offered some convenience or enhancement that they were not prepared to sacrifice. Maybe they don’t want to have to rely on Wawa and the cash-back checkout option for surcharge-free ATM use. (Maybe they don’t even HAVE Wawas. How terrible.) Maybe there’s a loan connected to that savings account that can’t easily be separated. Maybe people just hate the paperwork. Whatever the reason, there are a bunch of people who didn’t want to hurt the banks because they’d hurt themselves in the process.

I’ve been thinking about this for a while as the Occupy movement has gained steam. And one reason that I am not an enthusiastic supporter is that I don’t get a sense of what the Occupiers are willing to give up in order to create the changes they want, so I can’t tell if I am willing to do the same. I recognize that the Occupiers are making individual sacrifices of time, energy, money, and supplies in order to keep the movement going and visible, and some have been arrested or injured in the process. I’m not questioning the level of commitment. What I’m thinking of here is a sustained program of consumer boycotts or civil disobedience that makes cooperating with Occupy – at least in part – a more profitable option than continuing to resist. Without an electoral strategy, I don’t see any other path to change beyond armed revolution. A mass of people showing they’re unhappy doesn’t motivate the corporate world to change. I’m reminded of the insurance manager from The Incredibles, Mr. Huph. When Bob asks his boss if he’s gotten any complaints about Bob’s work, Huph just smiles and replies, “Complaints, I can handle.” A mass of people costing the corporate world money; now, that will motivate change.

The problem is, the corporate world gives us a lot of things we like and we, as a society, don’t want to give them up. Maybe I’m not happy about the way that the companies who supply parts for Apple treat their workers. Many websites, for example, have reported on problems and suicides at Foxconn’s factory in China. Sure, it bothers me that people would treat each other that way. But it doesn’t bother me enough to stop listening to my iPod while I type this blog entry on a MacBook. People complain about the price of cable television, but they keep paying because they don’t want to give up ESPN or HBO. The path from where we are to the world we’d like to see is very long, and I’m not sure how much I want to walk it.

I’ve seen a lot of people (mis)quote Gandhi about protest and social movements. “First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.” The part that I don’t see as often is that for that progression to work, a large group of people has to be willing to keep fighting, and losing, until the tipping point is reached. Otherwise they can just keep on ignoring you. A minority can not oppress a majority unless the majority cooperates. But the minority has a lot of tools at its disposal to try to motivate the majority to do just that. The majority has to be willing to ensure losses and sacrifices that it could avoid by giving in, in order to have a hope of a better future that might make up for the losses. As rough as the last few years have been, I wonder if enough people are close enough to the bottom that they’re willing to give up what it takes to turn things around.

I wonder if I am.

And I think that means that however much blame I want to give people above my pay grade who ought to know better, I need to save a little for myself.

        

Money Magic

Posted October 18, 2011 By Dave Thomer

In World History we’re currently studying the Roman Empire, and today we began the section of the chapter that deals with the fall of the (western) empire. In trying to lay out the problems that plagues Rome, the textbook spends a fair amount of time on the idea of inflation. (Side note: of course, given the circumstances, “a fair amount of time” amounts to about a paragraph.) We spent some time talking through the concept. Everyone in the class could relate to the idea that things used to be cheaper than they are today. We all have older relatives or neighbors to tell us about that, after all. As we talked about the idea that coins containing less of a precious metal might be worth less, one student asked a very good question:

Why should it matter what the coin has in it? If the coin says it’s worth a certain amount, it should be worth that amount.

I can’t tell you how happy I was to get that question. I loved the thought that went into it, and the refusal to just take what I was saying for granted (or just tune it out). But I also loved that it raised a topic that my philosophical side has pondered for a long time: What the heck is money, anyway?

I mean, I have a rough understanding of the difference between the gold standard vs. a fiat currency, for example. When I was a teenager, I used to think of money as congealed time. “It took me three hours to earn this 20 dollars,” I would say to myself. “Is this CD going to be worth 2 ½ hours of my time?” Even with this thought process, I did not always make sound financial decisions. But it helped. But I put aside the more fundamental question: why was I willing to trade my time and labor for pieces of paper with numbers on them, and why was the record store willing to trade me a CD for those pieces of paper?

Well, I was willing to do the former because I believed that the latter was true, and events justified my conclusion. But when you get right down to it, those pieces of paper are only usable in trades because we believe in them. And human history is full of pretty irrational examples of such beliefs. From tulips to Pets.com shares, people are capable of changing their mind pretty quickly about what certain things are worth. Indeed, we don’t even need the pieces of paper anymore – we’ll take numbers on a computer screen. It’s an amazing example of human beings creating a reality just by believing in it. So it fascinates me, and I keep looking for better ways to conceive of this magic thing we call money.

        

Don’t Rush a Miracle Man

Posted October 14, 2011 By Dave Thomer

Note: One of the perils of blogging for ten years is that you forget which movie quotes you’ve already used for post titles. Turns out this was not the first attempt to write a post called “Have Fun Storming the Castle.” Pattie beat me to it by four years. Who knew?

While I’m on the subject of my favorite movies, it’s worth checking out this Entertainment Weekly feature on The Princess Bride. I remember being in the schoolyard in grade school as a couple of my friends started quoting this movie to me. It sounded crazy, so of course I wanted to see it. When I finally did, I was hooked. I’ve been watching and quoting it ever since. Getting my sister to watch it was one of the awesome things about being an older brother. “Hello, my name is Inigo Montoya” is like the secret handshake of a club of cool people who like this cool movie. That movie made me search out William Goldman’s original book – very good, but different in tone – and his nonfiction books on screenwriting. And I’m always careful to note the difference between mostly dead and all dead.

I should have taken Vizzini’s advice, though.

No, not “Never get involved in a land war in Asia.” I’ve got that one pretty much down. And I’ve never gone in against a Sicilian when death was on the line.

But I should have paid better attention to: “You’ve heard of Plato? Aristotle? Socrates? . . . Morons.”

        

Punishment and Rehabilitation: Folsom and Shawshank

Posted October 13, 2011 By Dave Thomer

This week in ethics, we’re thinking about the way that society punishes the people who do something that society deems wrong. We may be getting ahead of ourselves a little bit, because even though we’ve discussed a couple of ethical perspectives, we have lots of room left to discuss and evaluate what actually is right and wrong. But it’s not a bad idea to think about the stakes of making decisions about ethics. If we as a society decide something is wrong, what is the best way to respond to people who act against that decision? What are the consequences that come from different levels of harshness? What does the way that we treat “wrongdoers” say about the way that we view people in general?

Plus, since this class is using film to illustrate some of its questions, this topic is an opportunity to watch The Shawshank Redemption, which remains my favorite movie. The students usually respond well to it, too, and getting to see a bunch of people see it for the first time is its own thrill. There’s a scene in the movie where Andy Dufresne wants the warden to spend some money to upgrade the prison library. The warden replies that the public only wants the government to spend money on three things in prisons: more bars, more guards, and more guns. Andy is persistent, though, and gradually builds the prison library into a resource that helps at least a dozen prisoners get their high school diplomas. (He has some other projects in the film, but I won’t spoil those if you haven’t seen it.)

This NPR story about Folsom State Prison (made famous by Johnny Cash) from 2009 shows that conflict playing out in the real world – as we spend more money on bars and guards and guns, we spend less on educating and training convicts for life after prison. Whether that actually makes anyone safer or improves anyone’s life is a very open question. I like using this story because I can play the audio from the original radio story and give students the printed article version, so that gives students a couple of different paths to absorb the information. With the article in hand, I ask the students to answer a set of questions that connect to the prison-and-punishment theme. I also hope that thinking about the questions will help the students think about how the media can construct a story to support certain conclusions. It’s definitely worth listening to the story and thinking about what the story says – and doesn’t say – about the prison guards union.

I’ll put the reflection questions after the jump.
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A Fringe of Inquiry

Posted October 12, 2011 By Dave Thomer

When I think of different ways to set up a learning institution, I usually wind up thinking about Jane Addams and Hull House. The settlement house movement of the late 19th and early 20th century has a lot of lessons to offer us in the progressive education community. That’s not terribly surprising, since Addams worked closely with John Dewey when they were both in Chicago. Reading Democracy and Education is great, but seeing how Addams and her colleagues worked to put that theory into practice is invaluable.

I teach Addams’ “The Function of the Social Settlement” whenever I teach an epistemology class because I like to have my students talk about their vision of their education, especially its practical benefits, and see how that fits with Addams’ vision. There’s a passage that always sticks out to me. She talks about how one of the middle-class, college-educated residents at Hull House wanted to take a group of working-class immigrants from the surrounding neighborhood on a tour of one of Chicago’s museums. The immigrants found it difficult to appreciate the works they saw, because they had no background knowledge of the traditions or contexts involved. – knowledge that their guide had spent a lifetime acquiring. The mistake, Addams says, is thinking you can take someone from culture and background and dump them into an entirely different context and expect them to appreciate the new environment. You can not, she says, throw “a fringe of art” onto a day spent at a factory; you can’t throw it on a life that is not immersed in it or connected to it and expect the art to make any kind of connection.

A fringe of art. I love that phrase. (It’s repeated in her memoir, 20 Years at Hull House.) And I think about it often as I try to put my own educational philosophy to work in an environment that seems ill-fitted to it at places. I believe in the Deweyan, pragmatic ideal of inquiry more than ever. I see the potential for approaches like project-based learning to bring that ideal to life. But as I look at my own practices, I wonder if I am not trying to throw a fringe of inquiry onto my teaching.

When I started teaching at the high school level, I had a lot of ambitious dreams about allowing my students to use the technological resources at their disposal to research the world around them, identify problems or areas of confusion, and then figure out what historical events in the curriculum connected to that present-day question. The reality that I’ve come to face is that many (not all) of my students – like many of the people in the world – don’t really care about how the world around them works. They don’t want to take it apart of fiddle with it or tweak the settings to make it function a little better. They just want it to work so that they can get back to doing what they’re doing. There’s not necessarily anything wrong with this in a lot of cases. I believe Apple has made about a kajillion dollars satisfying this desire in technology users. But it makes it harder to find that initial point of curiosity that can serve as the launching pad for an investigation.

Starting the inquiry is only part of the question, of course. The next issue is, once a student has found a problem to investigate, how can the student do so in a fruitful way? Here I find a difference between the way I think about inquiry and the way my students think about inquiry. My approach is to start gathering sources, to read and listen and watch things until I have gathered a body of information. Then I can look in that body of information for facts that connect together and try to tell a story about whatever I’m researching. Of course, I began my career as a student long before Google; heck, long before Yahoo and Lycos. For many students today, the path to inquiry begins with typing a question into a search engine and ends with copying the first hit onto their paper. The more I read about the iPhone 4S and Siri, the more I expect that teachers in a few years will be requiring their students to talk into the smartphones rather than keep them hidden at all times.

While I appreciate the convenience, I also think there’s something to be said for doing things the long way and understanding the knowledge that you’ve built. So I’m trying to teach my students the skills they would need for inquiry the long way – close reading of texts; broader keyword searches; finding and summarizing main ideas; outlining; evaluating media sources; and plenty of others. By the time I’ve really helped students practice and build some of these skills, I barely have enough time in my district-mandated schedule to squeeze in a project or two, especially if I’m trying to make a connection to events in the contemporary world that don’t quite have a spot on my planning and scheduling timeline. It’s hard to tell if there’s real inquiry happening, or just a fringe.

I will certainly continue to refine my own practice. As I build better relationships with my students I hope I will see more opportunities for genuine inquiry into subjects that they are about passionately. But I also believe that this is way beyond any one teacher. There are schools around the country that build a culture of inquiry from a young age, but there aren’t enough. We need to create more, to help students find the spark of education-for-personal-growth early and then build the skills and habits to help that spark grow. If we do, I think we’ll be pleasantly surprised by what we discover together.

        

Can I Handle the Freedom?

Posted October 11, 2011 By Dave Thomer

Gotta get back on the blogging bandwagon, and I’ve been mulling on this one for a while.

It just so happened that I heard two very different visions of a teacher’s role in planning lessons and curricula in the same day. I was reading Mary Beth Hertz’s blog entry about planning the technology curriculum at her school. She specifically mentioned how she was able to refine and improve that curriculum as she got to know her students better and she increased her own understanding of who they were and what they needed. She moved from that experience to a general need for administrators and policy makers to provide a greater role for teachers in the planning process.

Know that we are professionals whose expertise is children. Let us use what we know about our students and about teaching and learning to craft a curriculum together that best meets the needs of our community. Let us have input into the document. Foster conversations across grade levels about skills and concepts students need to have or understand to be successful. Stop calling purchased reading series and social studies textbooks ‘curricula.’

It’s a good post, and I recommend you read the whole thing. It certainly fits with my own sympathies and my own vision of a teacher as a guide, someone who can draw on his or her own experiences in order to help students create learning experiences for themselves. I’m in my third year teaching World History at Parkway, and I think I’m just starting to get to know my students, my colleagues, my textbook and myself well enough to put together resources and a plan through the day that will be helpful to the students and build skills they need. (Notice I didn’t say anything about being a guide and creating learning experiences there. That’s a post for another evening.)

But the same day I read that post, I was talking to a colleague in the staff room. This colleague has a variety of experiences in and out of the classroom, and his argument was that one reason why teachers feel so burdened and exhausted is that they have multiple responsibilities, all of which could serve as a full time job. There’s knowing your content. There’s planning the lesson. There’s delivering the lesson. There’s all the stuff that we call classroom management, and there’s all the stuff that goes with assessing students’ performance after the lesson. How in the world can someone design 180 high-quality lessons a year on a part-time schedule, and then have the energy to go out and deliver it? A corporate presenter might spend weeks or even months honing a single presentation, but what teacher has that kind of time? We’re workshopping the whole thing as we go, doing a couple of live dress rehearsals and hoping that we come up with something good enough to get a return engagement the next year.

My first instinct on hearing this was to rebel. How many teachers have I heard complain about the scripted lessons they have? How many already don’t feel like they have the respect, trust and freedom to ad lib where their judgment tells them it’s appropriate to do so? This was taking authorship and creativity out of the teacher’s hands, and I couldn’t see how it could be a good thing.

Then I thought about actors. Their whole job is to take someone else’s words and ideas, infuse life into them, and make them their own. I thought about the fact that my musical tastes tend toward singer-songwriters, and I often give the act of interpreting and performing a song short shrift in favor of emphasizing the writing part. There’s got to be a place for this in education somewhere, some way that we teachers can tap into the brilliance of really good lesson planners the way an actor can tap into the brilliance of Shakespeare.

I think there can be, if the planning talent is there. I would never script a teacher’s lessons word for word. I would give more teachers the freedom to deviate from a plan or a timeline if they thought it was appropriate. But there is a real skill in assembling a plan and the resources to pull it off. I’m especially thinking of things like simulations or related activities. I’ve been working for years to design a good simulation of a run on the banks, and just like game design and other forms of design, it is tough to get all the pieces in the right order. I never feel like I have enough time to get every single piece lined up. I’m going to keep trying and I like the challenge, but the time it takes me to get this bank simulation right is time I can’t spend doing something to make the French Revolution come alive better. There’s a tradeoff that comes with designing from scratch.

I really feel that tradeoff when it comes to my Ethical Issues class. I’ve been designing and redesigning it from the beginning since the day I started at Parkway. And designing a high school course is nothing like designing a college class. When I design a college class, I pick a text or two, assign the readings, put some lecture notes together and then walk into class and improv the discussion based on what the students are interested in. There’s no improv in high school, at least not my high school. Every lesson needs to be structured from beginning to end down to the last question and the final activity. I am just now figuring out how to take the ethics content I’m familiar with and present it in a way that can connect to a high school audience that has no prior philosophical experience. And I am exhausted. Sure, it’s a feeling of success to be getting somewhere with the course, but it’s a limited audience. If I were at a different school with a different culture or a different group of students, what I’m doing now wouldn’t work. If I handed my notes and lesson plans to another teacher from my school, he or she would probably feel lost. There’s no way to scale up my specific adaptations, which means someday I’ll be reinventing the wheel again.

As I think about the pros and cons, I’m generally OK with that. But I’m pretty sure I’ll be throwing some cover tunes into my set list in the process.

        

So in the ethics class, we watched The Matrix to set up the problem of skepticism. (Side note: I remember teaching my first Philosophy class in fall ’99. As I lectured on Descartes, a bunch of students told me about this new movie that was totally an example of what Descartes was talking about. I scoffed at first, but they were right. Once it was so cutting edge. Now my students laugh at the cell phones and Keanu’s kung fu poses.)

I decided to follow up with this Wired story from a few years ago about Ray Kurzweil’s belief that in the not-too-distant future we’ll be able to back our brains up as computer programs. I’m still trying to help my students work through the article itself, but it does set up an interesting way of looking at the mind-body problem. If you can preserve the “information” parts of who you are, even without the more obvious physical aspects, are you still you? That there are people working on this even today is a nice way to take the philosophical question out of the abstract. Plus I still have somewhat fond memories of doing my undergrad thesis on the philosophy of AI. 🙂

These days, I admit, I fear that even if we could transform ourselves into intelligent programs, we’d just have to spend all of our time updating our drivers. Maybe we’ll get lucky and Apple will come up with iMind.

        

20 Years of R.E.M. Fandom – Part 1

Posted September 25, 2011 By Dave Thomer

This story of R.E.M. begins in 1988. Sure, the band had formed in Athens, GA more than eight years earlier. Absolutely, by 1988 they had already helped to usher in the age of college rock, built a large fan base through years of near-constant touring, and even had a Top 40 hit with “The One I Love.” But in my grade-school years in Northeast Philadelphia, I missed all of that. So this story has to begin when R.E.M. left its independent label and signed with Warner Brothers Records.

If they hadn’t “sold out,” I never could have bought in. And what a shame that would have been.

One winter morning, school was canceled because we were supposed to get snow. The snow never really came, so my mother took us out bowling instead. Car rides usually involved a protracted sequence of negotiations, because I usually wanted to listen to the Top 40 station and my mother’s tastes were more to the soft-rock side of the spectrum. She was willing to humor me on many occasions, and this was one of them. As we were driving, a somewhat goofy song started playing. It was catchy, and I thought it was a little absurd that the singer was telling me to stand in the place that I was. But I liked absurd things, so the song stuck in the corner of my mind. But that didn’t quite do it.

Some time later, I came upon a Time magazine review of the album with that song on it, an album called Green. The review led off with the fact that the last song on the album had no title, and the reviewer imagined that this could make for a somewhat difficult situation when fans would want to request the song at concerts. The phrase, “Hey, play “ stuck in my head, and I was once again impressed by the quirkiness of this band. I brought up this fact a year later when I saw a friend had the cassette, but that still didn’t do it for me.

In early 1991, I had carved out a little workspace in the family laundry room, with a desk, a computer, and a radio. I was still listening to Top 40 stations, although format changes meant that I wouldn’t necessarily stick with one for any length of time. One night the DJ announced a new song by R.E.M. and played “Losing My Religion.” That first time, even that didn’t do it for me. It took another few months, of hearing the song on the radio and hearing Green and Out of Time when I hung out with my friends. I got more and more into the music, and I finally borrowed both albums and brought them home.

My mother heard one of them – I’m not sure which – and commented that this was a point where her taste and mine diverged sharply. I don’t think she knew how right she was. This was my entry into a new world of music, music that combined melodies with layers of instruments and often-earnest lyrics to create a mood that could surround me and lift me up; a world that featured people that didn’t fit in everywhere but fit in somewhere and were OK with that. It was the perfect world and the perfect music for a teenage me, and R.E.M. was always at the front of it.

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Between an NCLB Rock and a Waiver Hard Place

Posted September 24, 2011 By Dave Thomer

President Obama announced the long-anticipated waiver policy for No Child Left Behind on Friday. If you’re not an education policy wonk/geek: The No Child Left Behind law requires that all schools demonstrate that 100% of their students are meeting state standards by 2014, or else the schools will be considered to be failing. Besides the label, there are various consequences that can come from this label, including loss of funds or a requirement for administrative and staff shakeups. So no one wants to be labeled as failing. States have been setting targets each year for how many students should be meeting the standards. As we get closer to 2014, those targets are rising quickly. For example, in Pennsylvania this year, a high school must have about 80% of its 11th graders score “Proficient” or “Advanced” on our state standardized test, the PSSA. Next year, the target goes to roughly 90%. The year after that, it’s 100%. Very few schools are hitting that 90%-100% range, so education officials in states all over the country have been crying out that the targets need to be revised.

The standard way to do that would be for Congress to revise the law. NCLB is not actually a brand-new law that was signed in 2002. It’s a renewal of the Elemental and Secondary Education Act of 1965 (and a package of amendments to other laws), which established a lot of the policies through which the federal government provides funding to states and school districts. The ESEA needs to be reauthorized every five years, and that reauthorization is an opportunity for Congress to make significant changes in education if it sees fit to do so. The ESEA came up for renewal in 2007, but Congress has not been able to pass a new version of the law. So the initial targets are still in place.

The law does give the Secretary of Education the authority to issue waivers to states from the law’s requirements. It does not say on what basis those waivers should be given. So the Obama Administration, especially Secretary of Education Arne Duncan, has been saying for months that if Congress did not pass a revision of the law, the Department of Education would start issuing waivers to states that met certain criteria. Republicans in Congress, and plenty of people of every ideological persuasion outside of Congress, have claimed that this is an overreach – the president should not be able to tell states that they don’t have to follow a federal law because they’re doing something that he likes better. Obama has not been deterred, and on Friday he announced that states could begin applying for the waivers.

I have to say that I do not have the principled objection to this executive action that others in the education community do. If Congress didn’t want these waivers to be given, they could have left the waiver power out of the 2002 legislation. If Congress wanted to set the terms under which the law would be revised, they have had almost five years to do so. It’s the role of the executive branch to figure out the best way to implement the laws passed by Congress, and that often requires the executive branch to determine certain rules, regulations, and requirements. If we as voters don’t like the way that a president uses that power, it’s our job to vote him (or someday her) out of office.

But while I think that the Obama Administration is right to take some action on the question of NCLB requirements, I am leery of the specific requirements that it is setting for states to get the waivers. I do not know what details are being given to education officials, and all that I have to go by are the president’s speech on Friday and the fact sheet issued by the White House. They emphasize that in order to get the waivers, states must show that they are developing “college and career ready standards and assessments,” systems of “differentiated recognition, accountability and support” and new methods of “evaluating and supporting teacher and principal effectiveness.” In that sea of buzzwords, there’s a lot of potential for bad ideas.

I have been crabby about the ways that education standards and objectives are phrased for a long time, but rather than get into detail, let’s jut note that “citizenship-ready” isn’t in there anywhere. You can get a degree or work at a job without having the skills and the understanding to be a good citizen. But too often we don’t write our standards in ways that point to what we need to build our communities.

The recognition, accountability and support measures are incredibly vague, but I assume that the districts and states that are going to have to write these policies know what the administration has in mind. From the fact sheet, it looks like the system is supposed to take students’ income level into account somehow, which could be a good thing depending on how it’s implemented.

And then we get to evaluating teacher effectiveness. The headline controversy there, as it should be, is going to be on the use of standardized test scores to determine who the good teachers are. Based on what the Obama Administration has done with the Race to the Top program, I am not hugely optimistic on that score. I also worry about whether we have enough consensus on the definition of “good teaching” to make such evaluations possible. In my more optimistic moments, I think that good teaching is something that can be recognized by people who take the time to observe a teacher and group of students over a sustained period of time, And then my pessimism wonders how we are going to find the time to do that when so many schools are stretched to their limits because of budget cuts and other factors.

The devil is in the details, and we don’t have many of those yet. I fear that we are at the beginning of another well-intentioned misstep in education policy, but I dearly hope that I am wrong.

        

Photographs on the Dashboard

Posted September 21, 2011 By Dave Thomer

R.E.M. announced today that they are no longer a band. This bums me out, and it’s hard to explain why. No one’s coming into my house to take my copy of Automatic for the People, after all. I think that what makes me wistful is that, as we grow older, we change. And sometimes we celebrate the growth and change, and sometimes we want to reconnect with our long-gone self. Having things in your life that have grown older with you kind of helps. I will never be 17 years old, sitting in a newspaper office at Holy Ghost listening to Automatic for the first time, again. I will never be 21, sitting in the basement of the McGinley Center at Fordham, typing an article for The Ram while I listened to “New Test Leper” from New Adventures in Hi-Fi for the first time. (If you’re detecting a lot of newspaper offices in this story, you win a prize. That trip downtown to buy New Adventures was my first official date with Pattie, by the way.) But when I listened to Accelerate or Collapse Into Now for the first time, it was a way for my 36-year-old self to look back and wave at those younger mes. I kinda liked that, and now that particular musical gateway is closed.

I may take advantage of the weekend to ramble a little more on the topic, but for now, I just want to present a by-no-means-complete list of 10 R.E.M. songs that are very awesome.

  1. Nightswimming, from Automatic for the People.
  2. Leave, from New Adventures in Hi-Fi
  3. Fall on Me, from Lifes Rich Pageant
  4. Half a World Away, from Out of Time
  5. Let Me In, from Monster
  6. Uberlin, from Collapse Into Now
  7. Sad Professor, from Up
  8. Sitting Still, from Murmur
  9. The Lifting, from Reveal
  10. Life and How to Live It, from Fables of the Reconstruction

I went with a one-song-per-album limit there, or I may have just wound up reposting the track list to Automatic. I have around 200 R.E.M. songs on my iPod and I love ’em all. Since it looks like there’s a greatest hits package coming up just in time for the holidays, maybe there’ll be one more chance to add to the list.